Thats right, its my birthday. My SWEET 16 and the ONE person I was really looking forward to sing happy birthday to me isn't on.

His internet died and to tell me, he called his best friend? Why not call me and tell me yourself? It made me feel like that he didnt want to talk to me.

I've sent him like, four text messages, I've offline IMd him a lot, I've wished for his internet to magically return so he could be here but now I feel horrible and just want to mope in my bed and cry, feeling miserable.

sure, I got presents. THey're good presents. Presents Im going to return since I got two guitar straps and a shit load of picks from my aunts. But presents.

But yesterday, I said I cared for the presents, but really, I just want to spend another day with Jesse like any other day.

That's all I want. To sit on the computer and talk to Jesse. I dont want birthday cake or ice cream, I dont want presents. I want him.

My day, yesterday, turned good, to great, and then down to shit. Mom said that Jesse could spend a few days of the summer with us here at my house, that made feel so good I wanted to celebrate. On the way to Pizza hut (where we went for me and my cousin's birthday even though I didnt want to) I was happy because in a few months, Jesse would be here with me.

Then when I got home, it all went down hill. As soon as I got home, I got offline messages from him talking about gaia's new items so as soon as I went to start typing, his internet shut off like I killed it or something. All we got for time to talk was thirty minutes.

I stayed up until 8am to see if he'd get online but, nope. No Jesse, just another batch of tears coming my way.

I hate everything and all I want to do is curl up in the fetal position, suck my thumb, and cry.